de-profundis-clamavi

the past few months have been an interesting journey. I have sought spiritual direction but have struggled perhaps more than ever in my holiness. I would like to say that my struggles have at least been valient but sadly it is this simple fact that is the biggest struggle of all. Trying to try. How is it done? Well the book of Wisdom suggests this, "the first step in getting wisdom is... get wisdom". Perhaps Yoda said it best, "do or do not, there is no try." I have gone through periods of mediocrity and profundity, each glaring more brightly when surrounded by long lengths of the other. It is a strange feeling though, those times of peace,

Artistic growth is, more than it is anything else, a refining of the sense of truthfulness. The foolish believe that to be truthful is easy; only the artist, the great artist, knows how difficult it is. - Willa Cather

Each day, and the living of it, has to be a conscious creation in which discipline and order are relieved with some play and pure foolishness. - May Sarton